Week 2: Diary Room

[Sophie Reade]

Sophie the silent killer JUST survived week 1! ♥

I'm not happy about a lot of things. First off what the fuck is with people telling me Lydia would go and then she stays by a lot of votes. This obviously puts me in a really odd spot. I'm not only blindsided but in minority and a lot of people are bullshitting me. It's a very bad spot to be in right now. I've tried reaching out to people but everyone keeps acting surprised about Lydia staying. So for now I kind of give up on it.

On another note Dan is gone. Not surprised. Whatever, time to move on. I tried telling him to campaign and everything but he didn't seem to care. No loss I guess.

Finally Head of Household is here and it just so happens it's something that I'm amazing at. ♥ Morphed memory wall pictures is so my thing. I took my time to prepare myself and I nailed my time with 29 seconds. I feel like I could have cut so much more time from my time but I tried my hardest regardless.

So I've been taking my time to talk to people. James is one of the I talk to the most. We're on the works on some kind of alliance. Like I trust him somewhat but he could easily be pokerfacing me. This players are probably very tough.

Sophie: Well, I think it's evident my "winner" status is threatening to players. I kind of have an idea of what I have to do from now in order to knock out those who threaten my game.
James: The thing about you tho is at least from my perspective I know I wouldn't want to nominate you because A) I'd want to work with you, B) I don't want a target C) I love you!
Sophie: To be honest I do like you. And I have this feeling that you're a strong player. I like to work with strong people. My allies are usually strong players. I like competition.
James: I know!
Sophie: But as of now I have to re-think my strategy because some of these players who are threats are coming to get me.
James: I hate it when stupid floaters make it to the end.
Sophie: So obviously I can't be thinking of gunning for "weaker" players because that will only get me so far.
James: See if I win, I'm going to nominate the weaker players because the one who stays wont be a threat. But if you win, its going to be so difficult for you.
Sophie: It's different for you tho. You kind of get my point right?
James: There's a lot of choices but who's strong that you can knock out now.
James: People want to get you out because they know your the silent killer.
Sophie: Silent killer ♥
James: Right now I think your safety net is social game.
Sophie: I think social game can only carry me someways, not far enough.
James: The other thing is, I almost think your a bigger threat to the veterans.
James: Like I could totally see some of them going after you.
Sophie: The veterans? I disagree tho. If anything the "rookies" will come for me first before the other veterans so the veterans know its cool for me to stick around for now.
James: To be honest, I could see Ragan going after you, but that may be a poor assumption.
Sophie: Ragan has reasons to gun for me. Plenty of them. But at the same time if Ragan guns for me right now. He would be foolish.
Sophie: We've barely talked which kind of scares me. But whatever happens will happen because of what happened in season 1.
James: Well, I can tell you if I win HoH your 100% safe.

I do feel like he would keep his word but it doesn't mean he would campaign for me to not be on the block or kept in the game if I was a nominee. Right now I think that my main goal is to accomplish not being on the block the weeks I'm not in power. Which are most likely going to be a lot with this tough competition.

My problems are not over for the week tho. Trainwreck Lydia strikes!

Lydia: I heard that you hated me.
Sophie: How come?
Lydia: I don't know some poeple said you didn't like me.
Sophie: You and your rumors, you're such a wreck .
Lydia: I know but people said that you hated me. Is this true?
Sophie: I do, I think you're a trainwreck.
Lydia: Wait, you would put me up if you were HoH?
Sophie: Maybe.
Lydia: What did I do to you Sophie?!
Sophie: You're just all over the place. It kind of irritates me.
Lydia: Your fake.
Sophie: How am I fake?
Lydia: You acted nice to me and you hate me.
Sophie: I don't hate you but you confronting me, you need to shut the fuck up. Go ahead and start a rumor about me. Don't fuck with me bitch. Consider it a threat.
Lydia: Please!? I'm not effin with you!
Sophie: You confront me with rumors.
Lydia: No you admitted it, so they were facts.
Sophie: You're mentally unstable. Simple as that.
Lydia: No! I'm done with this bullshit.
Sophie: Go ahead and quit then.
Lydia: No I'm done with your bullshit. Bye!
Sophie: Bye bitch. Game is fucking on. You crossed the wrong bitch.
Lydia: Ok whatever.

My beloved Lydia. Don't even think I will waste a week of my glorious Head of Household reign on you. You're a waste of space in this game and you suck at life. You legit sound mentally challenged. Go quit the game.

[Sophie Reade]

So after debating over and over my nominations. I settled with April & Lydia. April put me on the spotlight this week by telling people she knew she would go up along with Lydia. So people were already expecting this set of nominees. I debated this over and over for such a long time. At the end of the day I thought, going with the safest bet right now is the right thing. I'm not sure where most people stand and a lot of people are pretty active compared to them so I have no option other than just to go with what the cast think is "inactive" and "worthless" otherwise I might be raising some eyebrows from my fellow houseguests and make myself look shady.

April: So I know you already probably have a good idea of what you're doing this week… so I figure I'd skip the usual sucking up that people do in games and just ask if your leaning towards nominating me?
Sophie: Why are you paranoid?
April: Slightly. Haha. It's hard not to be paranoid in Big Brother… but this week, I'm ever more so just because I know we have not spoken that much, and I didn't compete in HoH. But I don't want to sit here and be fake with you, and be like oh my gosh Sophie congratulations! And pull all the bs that I've seen in other games… I mean, congratulations on winning HoH that is sincere… but I hope you know what I mean.
Sophie: You've told people that you and Lydia are going on the block like if you know what I'm doing. I find it laughable.
April: I have not told people that. I have said I think that.
Sophie: It's the same as telling them.
April: Anyone that said I told them is bending the truth a little.
Sophie: I mean I don't even know where you get these conclusions from. I thought we were in good terms so far and that we had good conversations but then you said that and I was kind of taken back.
April: Well we have not spoken a lot, so maybe it's my paranoia getting the best of me. And the fact that I didn't compete in the HoH that's another mark against me. I obviously don't know what your doing but based on my paranoia and what Lydia has told me that's gone on between the two of you, I wouldn't have been surprised if we were the nominees. So, am I going to be nominated because I assumed I was going to be nominated? Or are you still thinking about it.
Sophie: I don't know what I'm doing yet. I was kind of irritated tho that you would assume who is going up without any sort of knowledge. Like I am a very easygoing person and you could have just talked to me first. Because now people expect you and Lydia to go up no matter what.
April: Weird, I'm pretty sure I only said that to two people. I guess everyone was taking what I said and spreading it around.
Sophie: Mhm. It went to everyone.
April: Well I'm sorry if what I said puts you in a position that your uncomfortable with. And I never questioned your character, I just had assumed… wrongfully so maybe, that you were closer with other people in the game than I. Wow. People are such gossips.

Nominations are pretty simple. None of these girls are a threat to me right now and I don't think this will hurt me down the road. All I have to do is make sure I win that Power of Veto. Keep my nominations the same unless something unnatural happens for me to switch things around.

Power of Veto was tough. It took a lot of effort and energy for me to win it. But I was SO determined. When results come in, it turns out nobody even tried. So I'm thinking to myself that if this is how the game is going to go for now there's no point in me doing so good in competitions but at the same time my performances will scare people into thinking that it's not easy to take me out right now so hopefully the upcoming Head of Households won't even dare touch me for now.

At the veto ceremony I pretty much made a plead to these people about how Lydia should be going this week. She didn't bother to compete in either competition and has been nothing but a drama queen. In the end I'm just hoping for everyone to go thru with it and make sure that Lydia is gone this week. We don't want inactive players killing the game in the long run. Plus I REALLY like April aside the fact that she pulled that dumb stunt of telling everyone she was going up on the block without even knowing me.