Week Two

[April Lewis]

I am beyond happy with the eviction results! I am absolutely stoked that Lydia stayed... because a) she stirs up the pot, and is a hot mess... which means people will want her nominated more than me (hopefully) b) I actually have spoken to Lydia quite a bit, and she has promised me she won't nominate me... and with Emma, I hardly spoke to her at all and she would have most likely nominated me and c) it was unexpected for a lot of people and really just kind of threw a grenade into the middle of things! I'm so happy, and I love me so Lydia! And I'm super happy that Dan got voted out as well.

Dan was talking to me quite a bit trying to get me to evict Jen, but I just got to a point where I thought he was super fake and then was rooting for Jen to stay hardcore. Jen messaged me once, and I just told her don't worry about me... use your time campaigning to other people, I'm voting to evict Dan. And from the little I have spoken to Jen, she seems super cool! And... she told Ragan she trusts me which is awesome.

Ragan, Ragan, Ragan... oh I love him! He's super nice, super smart, and super social! We were on Skype when the eviction results were posted and I very well might have burst his ear drums because I screamed at the top of my lungs in excitement! Ahh... and Ragan and I officially made a final two alliance tonight, so watch out for Ragan and April sitting in the finale. ;D I love Ragan, and I am extremely loyal to him... but I'm still playing the game and making it seem like he can control me just in case he ever thinks I'm disposable he'll think twice about it because I want him to think I'll do whatever he wants me to do.

Ugh, James... I seriously don't like James. And I'm really planning on dragging his name through the mud, I really can't stand him at all. He was almost bullying me into voting to evict Lydia and that doesn't fly for me. Ugh Ugh Ugh... but I talk to James a lot, so I almost feel safe with him, so I don't think I'd nominate him if I won HoH. So impossible!

Aaron and I spoke quite extensively today, and I really like him... and I think he really likes me as well. Which is good, because Lydia and Ragan two people I love don't like him... but I need to keep all my options open and Aaron is definitely someone who I can see myself working with down the road.

Sophie, Michelle, Drew, Brian, and Dino are all people who I really don't talk to very much. And I almost want to keep it that way so I don't have to screw anyone over if I win HoH eventually because then my excuse would be that we don't talk very much which is perfect because it's the truth. However, I don't want to alienate them and have them win HoH and target me so it's really tough. And speaking of Brian, I think he lied to me about the vote because he told Ragan he voted to evict Emma, and he told me that he voted to evict Lydia. Ugh! Liars make me sooo mad.

So my goals this week is to just talk to people more, and continue to strengthen my bonds with Aaron, Jen, Lydia, Aisleyne, and Sarah.

[April Lewis]

Oh my goodness, I feel like I have bipolar disorder... I went from a manic state when Lydia stayed in the house to now a depressed state because Sophie won HoH. Ugh! I seriously need some mood stabilizers to keep me sane.

If I had won HoH... not that I competed or anything, but just saying, if I had won; Sophie would have been one of my nominee's so this is worst case scenario. I can't stand Sophie, and now she is in charge of the house... ugh! *Rolls Eyes* I really believe that Lydia and I will be nominated, and I hope that I'm surprised. She will nominate Lydia because I guess they had a feud earlier before the HoH results were cast, and because Lydia hasn't been the most active player, and she will nominate me because we have not spoken very much and she can play it off like she is just being fair because I didn't compete in the HoH competition. This is terrible... and the anxiety of waiting for nominations is killing me.

I was talking to Lydia and she said that if we were nominated against each other that she would sacrifice herself for my benefit in the game, which is so incredibly generous and kind but I could never ask anyone to do that for me. I really enjoy Lydia's company in the game... so I hope there is some possibility of getting out of this week alive with Ragan, Lydia, and I still all together though my optimism is wavering on that matter.

Please Sophie Please Sophie Please Sophie Nominate Drew Instead Of Lydia And I Together! *Crosses Fingers*

[April Lewis]

Surprise Surprise! I'm nominated against Lydia... I had a strong feeling I would be, and someone who I told... probably Dino that I think Lydia and I will be the nominee's told Sophie so she tried to play it off like I'm only doing what you expected April. Oh my gosh, I was being nice to her when we were talking... but in reality I really wanted to punch her in the chest and pop one of her implants. Ugh! She makes me so mad... she thinks she is so sly and manipulative but then doesn't even have the guts to tell me why I'm really nominated, she wants to play it off like it's all my fault because I assumed I was going to be nominated, eff that! Game On Sophie!

Anyways, since being nominated Drew, Michelle, and Aaron have all said that I have their votes. And Drew even went as far as to say that he would use the Veto on me if he won it, and that I was one of the nicest people in the game! I hope he's not lying, because that is sooooo nice of him. And Lydia has already said that she would throw herself under the bus in order for me to stay in the game... so we shall see what happens.

I'm really not that worried, but you can never be certain in this game. Ahh... maybe I am just a little worried. Haha. But I think I have Michelle, Drew, Aaron, James, Ragan, and Jen and that would be enough... but of course I won't stop there and will try to get everyone! ;D

But now... it's Game On Sophie!

[April Lewis]

Ugh, this week sucks! Seriously...

1) School starts up again, so I'm anticipating stress from that in the near future
2) Work is super busy lately and a lot of deadlines are right around the corner
3) The love of my life moved away, back to their college which is two hours away
4) Sophie wins HoH
5) I'm nominated
6) I'm a have not
7) I get disqualified from the veto competition
8) I feel guilty for my spat with Kailia...
*I could go on for ages... ugh!

I'm sooo upset about getting disqualified from the veto, I was prepared to build a tower of 700 blocks. I didn't have to wake up early tomorrow and was mentally ready... but due to some "obstacles" I was not able to do so. I really wanted Veto, so that I can prove myself as a competitor and so that I could save myself, because even though just about everyone has told me that I'm safe this week... I still want to guarantee that!

Sarah, Drew, Jen, Aaron, Michelle, Ragan, and Brian have all told me that I have their votes 100% if I stay up against Lydia. And James and Aisleyne have displayed strong negative feelings towards Lydia, so I feel pretty confident in staying this week... but you can never be 100% sure unless you have that Veto. The only thing I can do now is to keep talking to people and keep forming bonds. I'm really starting not to like Sophie, James, and Dino at all... ugh! Everyone else seems super nice! ;D

[April Lewis]

Well, well, well... it's judgement time. I really am hoping to get no votes against me... although that'd be a miracle because I'm sure I've made someone mad along my Big Brother journey thus far. And honestly, even if I get votes against me... I'm more hoping to just survive the eviction in general. If I can't, that's super sad because Lydia seems to not be trying at all!

Oh well... *Crosses Fingers* I hope I'm here next week! It sucks that I won't get to compete in the HoH though. Ugh